SKIN CARE MASKS

i miss you so much it hurts me everytime i think of you.i just hate the thought that what we have is so fragile, and i don't want to lose it.it's been the only thing that's keeping me away from the things i can't bear to think of. you may not think that what we have is important as it is to me but i dont care. i dont care becuase you're the first person that can make me not hate myself so much when im around you. i may not show it all the time but i genuinely love you. i love how you babble about things, and how snore when you sleep, and how you tease me about not having a phone, i love everything about you. i know we dont know much about each other but i am so willing to try. i am willing to stay up talking to you. i am willing to bear my heart and soul to you. and you're the first person that i'm so scared to disappoint  hence the reason why you still dont know my secret and it kills me everyday. i hope you feel the same way as i do cuz i dont think i can bear you leaving me. i have felt it once, and i really really don't want to feel that kind of agony again. this is just so not me. it's defo not me to feel so mushy about some guy i barely know. it's not me to feel so clingy to a teenage boy, it's not me to have knots in my tummy when i think of someone. but you changed me, you made me feel things i didn't know i could feel. it's ridiculous,i know. "why is she feeling this way when i don't feel half of the things she feel". i may be making a fool outta myself but i dont care because im talking about you. the person who made me feel so content after such long hours of suffering. the person who saw my pit hair for god's sake and i dont know why but i dont care. the person i imagine about when i read all those tumblr posts about cuddling and talking.this may or may not be love but it sure as hell feels right. and im going to go with it because it makes me happy. you make me happy. so thank you from the bottom of my heart. it doesnt matter if we do break up one day real badly and you wont talk to me and we hate each other and whatever but just remember that i'll always love you. i loved you then, i love you now, i'll love you tomorrow and forever.