SKIN CARE MASKS

everything is falling apart. i just feel so lonely, it's kills me a thousand times. i don't know what is right, who i should i trust, what im doing, what is going on. i just feel so numb. im fucking tired of pretending. im fucking tired of pretending that im happy when im not. i dont even know what i feel anymore. everything is just a mess. im losing friends that i thought ill have forever. i just see the point of doing all this bullshit when you know it'll never do you any good. why do it if it doesn't make you happy. why try when you dont know yoir purpose. im losing it. im fucking losing it. the thing that has held me to the ground is gone. why dream the dreams that are unreachable. say what you want to say but that's just the truth. i just feel like im stuck in this box that i can never come out of. i just want to get out of it. i just want to be happy again. i want to feel adrenaline rushes. i dont want to feel happy then realise that im just making everything up. its all fake.